Just How Short Am I?

Parting..

2006-01-15T20:35:00.000+08:00

Like every sunday, i've to book in to camp once again.
Facing 5.5 more days ahead without having my baby in my arms.
I can only take consolation that i'm still able to hear her voice every night.
Though it has become a routine, that we are to part every sunday,
everyweek, it still feels like its the first time we are parting.
I dun want to.
I cant bear to.
But theres nothing i can do.
Looking into her eyes, planting a kiss on her lips, and wave goodbye.
And as always,
i find myself in a total lost once more.

Depression

2005-12-26T18:05:00.000+08:00

In a state of depression once more.
9 more weeks, i guess even if the trainings dun kill me, the depression would.

Seriously have never felt so sian before. Even worse then working or going for school.
How about letting me ORD right now and i promise that i'll study hard.. please?

I wonder, what are those people who signed on thinking of..
is it even worth the money?.

I rather have freedom.

Specially 4 my Baby

2005-12-26T15:54:00.000+08:00

Baby,

It has really been such a tough week for us. Yes, i'm very disappointed and depress that we're not able to spend Christmas together, but actually, its really got nothing to do with spending Xmas with you or not, i just need you to be here with me. Especially now.

I know its not possible, yet i just cant stop thinking and feeling down about it. Booking out on saturday would usually be filled with joy and anticipation, yet i didnt felt that way.

It was more of a relief, that i'm getting out of the camp, thats all. Nothing to look forward to, nothing to anticipate.

Then, just as i was feeling down & all, your surprises for me lifted me up. " Found " my presents which i really really love! Totally appreciate your efforts in getting my presents and of course, making a little " clip " of yourself. I cant keep count of how many times i kept replaying it baby, i could just go on and on.

Boo, actually i feel that i've already received my christmas present earlier then expected. Its such a big present that somehow, what u got me seem insignificant compared to it.

You are my gift baby. Nothing could beat that.

You have been my pillar of support for so many atimes, and it is you, who have kept me going through all these shit. I dun dare to imagine, what would life be without you.

My baby, such an important part of my life, you have become and you'll always be.

I thank you for everything you have done for me..

Love ya my Baby. Cant wait to see you on saturday.

I no like army

2005-12-26T15:44:00.000+08:00

Another few more hours before i gotta book in.
How fast the weekend has gone by.
And soon, i'm gonna start on the week again.

I no like Sispec at all. Really.
You know how young kids dun like to go to school and would feign illness and all,
i'm feeling that way * 100 times now.

So christmas came, and is going by.. as i speak.. A long weekend, especially precious to us, mean we get to book in on monday night instead. But really, whats the use of it, when my beloved baby, is in Taiwan on holiday with her family.

The tough first week, and yet, still gotta wait another before i can hold her in my arms again. Thank God that theres another holiday next week.

I really miss her alot.
and i really hate Sispec.

Posted to Sispec

2005-12-17T12:22:00.000+08:00

I've been posted to Sispec, School of Infantry Specialist otherwise known as
Suffer in Silence Plus Extra Confinement.

I NOT LIKE SISPEC.

Like always, there are things that certainly wouldnt go as we wish but no matter how, thats life and i guess we just have to accept and move on with it. From a good point ( if there is any ), is that its just a 9 weeks course after which there will be another posting again, so lets all just pray.

My dearest brother Desmond got into OCS, thus hes now gonna serve his bond to the navy.

From here, i would like to wish you all the best in your career with the Navy and sink ( since soar is for air force ) to greater heights. I believe that you would definitely make it through.
No matter how tough it is, u gotta hang on alright. Take care.

Back from the Dead.... & Bangkok

2005-12-15T09:52:00.000+08:00

Its been like a month since i last post. This morning, while waiting for desmond to wake up and head to the gym, i thought why not? Many friends have been asking why i haven updated in ages, its just that, during bmt, there isnt really much to blog about and i certainly do not wish to bore with army stories and all.

Anyway, i'm now awaiting for my posting to unit which will be released tmr morning 10am. Its one decision that would probably decide my kind of life for the next 2 years.

* chants * " 8 to 5 " " 8 - 5 "

I guess its more then impossible, unless i break my arm or something.

Just came back from bangkok last night. Holiday with my Baby! and along with is also my platoon mate and his gf. A galore of pictures. 176 in all. Not forgetting from my friend cam as well.. argh.. but what a fun trip! though as always, the objectives is still shopping but we had alot of fun.

just a few pics to spice things up a little!

Days in BMT

2005-11-06T19:23:00.000+08:00

Booking in tonight again, leaving house in approximately 30 mins time. Gonna take a cab down, am rather lazy to take the train from one end to the other anymore. I realise after enlisted, i've been taking cab a whole lot more, probably because, i feel that time is very precious during book out.

Gonna start my SIT Test tmr, 3 days 2 night outfield, Aint looking 4ward to it at all, especially after spending the previous week having my field camp, 7 days 6 nights. I hate the outfield. Really.

But thinking about it, Desmond is having his field camp right now. Started yesterday, so taking that into consolation i feel much better.
Hope your doing well inside Des.

Cya Peeps next week!

4 more weeks to POP!.

* love is the little things *

The aftermath

2005-10-15T18:52:00.000+08:00

After 5 weeks in Tekong, i am now a half fledged botak monkeyman.

Book Out Book Out Day!

2005-09-30T01:51:00.000+08:00

Today is thursday night and limpei has finally blogged again. Not because BMT got internet for us to use now but, limpeh is at home. Long Weekend la! Ho seh Bo. Because School 2 has some ceremony or something so they release us earlier.

Limpeh apologise for not blogging after my 1st bookout last week because limpeh everyday run here run there, climb here climb there, pull here pull there, too tired already.

Btw, Limpeh is enlisted into BMTC School 2 Scorpion Company, Platoon 3, Section 3, Bed 3.
Go buy 4D, 3303. Limpeh have to admit that its really a sibo ho welfare company sia. We dun have those young ginas officers but our incharge are all those lao jiao warren officer. Ang Kong here and there, see already also high. Especially our Officer Commanding. Limpeh Respect him!

Limpeh dun want to bore you with all the boring and usual army stuffs la except that limpeh is really lucky his kakis ( read: bunkmates/buddy ) are all very nice people. Limpeh really glad to have such fun and wonderful section mates!. ( read: some of them might read my blog thus shd anything be unsatisfactory i might get killed )

and stop asking about limpeh hair!

LIMPEH LAI LOH

2005-09-08T12:13:00.000+08:00

*** pardon me for my english and lousy hokkien but i'm training to be a well-versed soldier ***

becoz limpeh scared tonight no time to say goodbye, i is saying it now.

limpeh tmr morning going to Pulau Tekong for my PTP ( yes limpeh got bronze for napfa ) / BMT, 830am loh . Na Beh. From Jurong go until Pasir Ris, knn, lucky limpeh sister take half day, send me off, along with my lao pei lao bu. and my 2 aunties.

as u all know, Tekong got no internet, or at least not for us low life recruits, so limpeh cant blog. Cant blog later too because limpeh must do last minute shopping la!. Knn, haven go in must spend so much money already. Heard inside still got E-Mart. Knn haven go in wanna eat our money outside, enlist liao go in still wanna eat our money.

Limpeh dunno when will first bookout, think most probably 24th like that la, and if you do see limpeh and his shining botak head, u better not laugh i tell u else i break all ur teeth. And dun anyhow use your hand to anyhow touch touch limpeh's head.

limpeh will miss so much of his life but bo bian la. this 2 year, how u run also cant escape la, so limpeh face his fate and accept it. Limpeh hope everyone will do super in everything u do hoh. Work, studies, relationships, ai simi gia simi la! Ho seh bo!

Remember, if you feel you are suffering outside, think twice!, because yours faithfully limpeh is inside crawling on muds and not bathing for 7 days while feeding those mosquitos. In addition, getting scolded and shout at like shit by others who might possibly be same age as me. Knn. Think about it also sian.

Limpeh wanna say this out because its meaningful.

No matter how hard it is, The day will always end.

So Take care la!

all my peng you! limpeh will miss u!

** Tallier you included. Knn Limpeh sleep wanna go di siao siao me.

So from this moment on, Limpeh will go on Semi-Hiatus ( just like that kuching guy )

Take care all. I'll try to come back in one piece.

Back

2005-08-31T00:01:00.000+08:00

Sawadeeka!

back from thailand! had a whole ball of a fun over there! i cant believe i can be so excited over discounts and slashing of price, and seriously i wonder how am i gonna to shop in singapore without having the right to bargain.

shop shop shop till my feet hurts, had my first foot reflexology and it hurts like mad at times.

Look! QUEUE FOR THE MRT TRAIN! WAH BIANG EH NABEH!

can singaporeans please learn from them? its so much easier to board the train and of course without having to fight your way in like a bulldozer or something.

here are the rest of the pics!

2005-08-25T11:37:00.000+08:00

I'm fighting a losing battle with you.
I'll need a shield. And a fortress.
No, not you. Not now at least.

Bangkok!

2005-08-25T06:03:00.000+08:00

Not Posting for these upcoming days!

Going To Bangkok!

Take Care All!

So.

2005-08-16T15:57:00.000+08:00

Surprisingly so,
Seemingly so.
Why so.

How do u know ur getting old

2005-08-11T17:14:00.000+08:00

You know that your old when after having a long day at work,
your feeling tired and sleepy
listening to new hits played on radio
and suddenly outta nowhere, a retro song comes up on,
and you find yourself tapping away and feeling re-energised

"Everytime i see u falling i get down on my knees and pray"

Stayin Alive

2005-08-11T13:31:00.000+08:00

If you were listening to Class95 yesterday at around 1240,
you would probably heard this guy singing ( or rather, trying to )

"He He He He Staying Alive!"

That guy, is none other then yours truly.

Ven Lopez made me do an imitation of that song.

Staying Alive, an australian group is here in singapore for the best tribute for Bee Gees and Class95 had the tickets for it.

90 Bucks mind u.

Be the 1st caller. and Voila!. i made it once again onto national radio.

The concert is on 10th September.

i cant go.

because the gahmen want me to go Tekong on 9th september.

Nah Bei..

So instead of songs of Bee Gees, i'm gonna listen to the buzzing of the Bees

i have to pass the ticks to my dad. Hes gonna bring my mum along!..

They haven had a date for years. I think.

I'm excited for them!

Sigh

2005-08-08T14:04:00.000+08:00

I wish to blog but i think i've sorta develop a phobia for it.

i'm afraid Tallie will once again criticise my boring entries.

blogtophobia i call it.

I have to think through each sentence i'm about to type analysing the possiblity of its boringness and entertainment. I dun think i'll be able to stand another wave of cruel and hurtful blows of critism and remarks.

In another month's time, i'll be serving my nation. NAH BEH.
After reading my dear friend with dislocated shoulder i wish to cry.

Its one of those changing phase in life.

One thing i'll definitely miss is my hair.
Though they probably aint as nice as hers they are still, my beloved hair.

I'll miss my friends. ( Tallie u included )
I'll miss my waterbed.
I'll miss my night outs.
I'll miss bathing alone.
I'll miss my family.
I'll miss her.

At least theres this whole entourage of my family and relatives who are accompanying me to The Island. 5 tickets. none wasted.

But before that, i'll be heading to the land of Sawadeeka. Bangkok

Happy Birthday Singapore..
i present myself as a gift to you.
I'll work and train hard to protect you.
At least for 2 years.

2005-08-04T12:59:00.000+08:00

On behalf of the metrosexual, who's net is cranked.

***********************************************

A few days ago, i was on irc chatting with a closely knitted group
of friends and the topic somehow shifted to blogs when one of my friend mentioned

" Your blog is fucking boring "
" read first sentence i leave liao "
" unless i really sian then i read "

Lets call him Tallie. You can most probably guess why that.

now i wasnt angry at what he said. It got me thinking really. Are we blogging for
the pleasures of people reading it? Or are we blogging because we want to express
out how we felt at that point of time, boring or not.

He claims that the first blog he always read is Rockson who doesnt really need any introduction i guess the papers published his link and so far as to
even having the word ' Cheebye ' on it.

Readers of Rockson would definitely know that nearly each and every of his sentence
would be punctuated by at least a " Na Beh!, Chee Beh, Chee Bye, ".

i'm amuse as to why Tallie worship Rockson so much.

Theres no Boob Showing, no sexual entries, definitely doesnt teach you
new positions,

and then alas, i think it came down to only 2 possibilities.

Rockson is witty. ( i whole heartedly agree )

but there are many other witty writers out there too so why Rockson?

I can be funny and witty too!

* knock knock *
* whos there *
* Na *
* Na who? *
* Na Bei Chee Bye La *

Funny right?

and then it dawned on me why Rockson was the chosen one.

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Tallie is one fucking nabeh Chee Beh Kia.

I also found out that another friend in the clique "reads" mine too.
lets call him Bassist. ( obvious ? )

He said that he visits my blog so as to go through my links to read a particular
someone's blog whom i shant name. All i can divulge is that someone is a girl and
she has a figure to boot and she has a B-E-A-U-Tiful Mouth.

now now, well at least hes much better then Tallie isnt he. He didnt said i was boring.
he was just there to use my blog as a portal to another!

i'm so happy.

now both of them are my good friends and i would DIE for them to visit my blog so
much so as i'm thinking of even revamping the style i'm writing in. i think i'll start
even right now!

For you Tallie.

NAH BEH, I am FUCKINGLY begging you to read my CHEE BYE blog. Please do not FUCKING stop at the
first sentence. At least read till the 5th line? I would be so FUCKING happy even so. So please stop being a
CHEE BYE KIA and make me FUCKING upset ok. NAH BEH CHEEBYE. and u were saying you want to record down
all your FUCKING ( literally ) Kharma Sutras, well i could even help you publish it. I wouldnt mind at all.
NAH BEI! We are good friends and friends help one another. So just let me know.

For you Bassist.

its a pleasure for my blog to be used by you as a portal to others. I would definitely add more
links so that it can sorta be a Blog Hub For You. Access To Any Blog. And i would even help you to shift that
Particular someone link Up to the Top! so that u do not have to even scroll
Thats how much i'll do for you to visit my blog. You can even give me the url of who u want to read and i'll
gladly add them for you.

alright thats all. Have a Fucking CheeBye Nice Day Y'all

Graduation!

2005-07-29T00:59:00.000+08:00

Busy Busy Busy!
No time to blog!
Office no more net!

Attended the Graduation Ceremony on Tuesday.
Too busy to upload all the pics! By this weekend!

in the meantime, check out my 5 mins of fame!

Click on Session 3. And Fast Forward To around 54:48. i'll appear a few secs later.

alright updates soon!

Coping

2005-07-23T17:41:00.000+08:00

Sometimes, things happen when we least expect it.
the realisation just suddenly hit you like a sledge hammer.
How are we going to handle it?
face up to it, or keep it to one self.
of which the former, would most definitely, bring about certain effects.
its tough to keep it to yourself isnt it,
because you know that one day, you'll regret not speaking out.

which should we choose..

Hacker on the loose

2005-07-21T16:16:00.000+08:00

Both Xiaxue and Anna Wonkytong had their site hacked. With a stroke of good luck, Xiaxue managed to get back her account but that cannot be said of Anna Wonkytong.

Guys/Gers its time to change your password! Especially if your using the same passwords for a whole lot of different stuffs like emails, friendster and stuffs.

As Mr Brown mentioned

"If I am not wrong, this falls under the Computer Misuse Act and is possibly criminal."

Yes it does, i had studied that before..
Now.. let me think which section does it falls under..

Bloggers.SG 2005

2005-07-18T14:15:00.000+08:00

i was there, were u?

didnt manage to take any pics at all because apparently her handphone wasnt good enough. And even so, its only equipped with *cough* infra-red *cough* therefore, we are pic-less.

It was fun and i TOTALLY DISAGREE with the Sunday Times that labelled the event a "YAWN".

Yawn u back!

I must say its fun just sitting around and trying to spot the local blogger.

"There MrBrown!
"nor nor! that one is Sheena
"eh there there KENNY SIA! behind with all the gers! just like they always say.."
"Miyagi look so tico sial"

Oh and i managed a little chat with Xiaxue too.. if u consider her asking if i want to put my url down on the sticker and to pass it around as a "Chat"..

and Ting called me just to see where i was. A little wave and Ok!

it was really cool just sitting around the outdoor bar. Nice place to chill out! and of course .. the free flow..

Chatted with some other bloggers as well! Chin and Angela and a couple more, but as much as i tried, i couldnt really remember. apologies.

oh and i just found out then, that yuhui is actually a guy.

Bloggers.SG was a Blast!
oh and not forgetting the Belly-Good Belly Dancers!

thought provoking

2005-07-14T11:17:00.000+08:00

I have always been an avid reader of Tetanus .
His writings often leave me intrigue. Today was no exception.

Extracted :

" I have been thinking, because lately I have realized the importance of it in a relationship. For surely compatibility between two persons is one of the key points that will strengthen and carry the communicating, the understanding and the acceptances within the affair of a woman and a man. "

" But after having spent two years working out the disparities that opposite personalities bring about - in which we had clashed so often only to leave matters unresolved simply because neither of us could not understand where the other was coming from - I do not think I want to believe that any more, if not for the simple fact that I cannot fathom going through it all over again and potentially walk away in two years' time being none the wiser. "

" If two persons were compatible to begin with, those compromises could be minimized. Of course there will be compromises; but why put one's ideologies and principles on the line just to ride a relationship out - a relationship that was never meant to be in the first place - when one can be in a relationship in which both sets of intellect, morals and values are more akin? "

Some food for thought.

Bloggers.SG Convention

2005-07-13T08:37:00.000+08:00

Got this from CowboyCaleb. Apparently, Yuhui has done up a banner for the upcoming Bloggers.SG convention.

Spread the word and let it rip

Howard Shan

2005-07-12T09:26:00.000+08:00

Quote Howard Shan Lo

" Curiousity Killed The Cat, Satisfaction brought him back! "

Ingenious.

He is definitely one cool guy and hes on Blind Dates on Class 95

i heard hes gonna appear in the next episode of Eye for A Guy/Ger, cheesy show, but i like him.

Engulfing

2005-07-11T16:43:00.000+08:00

Swirling emotions engulfed me,
outta nowhere, a barrier rests upon me
fears and uncertainties linger around,
my visions and thoughts are shrouded and unclear,
i am subdued.

Creative Muvo 1.5

2005-07-11T10:21:00.000+08:00

I was gonna make my way back home from serangoon interchange on sat night.

Train + Bus -> 45mins
Bus ( direct ) -> an hour 10 mins max.

i chose the latter because it has already been a long time since i've took that all familiar route..

it nearly turned fatal.

I noticed this group of indian teenagers, 5 of them to be exact. 3 gers and 2 guys to be even more specific. Probably age around 18 or 19. Destination which i guess most probably would be chinablack or some clubs.

i took my usual seat 3rd row from the back. The 5 of them took the last 2 rows.

and they began, chatting. Rather loudly, and non-stop.

My usual peaceful ride home, was disturbed, by non-stop loud bullet speed chattering and i seriously mean non stop. i guess there wasnt much break time since there were 5 of them.

i had to blast my beloved Creative Muvo to try to cover up their noise.

it went on for 40 mins. i nearly went mad.

But it was the day, where my muvo saved my ears. In gratitude, i might take it for GMask

2005-07-09T10:38:00.000+08:00

might i have gained weight?

what with a heavier heart,
constant thoughts jogging through my mind,
a huge lump stuck in my throat,
and tears lingering around the corners of my eyes..

Mysterious Contributor

2005-07-08T12:02:00.000+08:00

Theres gonna be this new person who will be contributing to my blog.
I have sworned secrecy not to reveal the real identity of the person so no matter what, my lips are sealed.

U can get nothing out of me.

London Bomb Blast

2005-07-08T09:23:00.000+08:00

" The synchronized blasts were over in 56 minutes: --

8:51 am (0751 GMT) a blast hits between Liverpool Street and Aldgate underground stations, killing seven people. --
8:56 am (0756 GMT) an explosion detonates in the underground near the central King's Cross station. A further 21 die. --
9:17 am (0817 GMT) a device explodes at Edgware Road underground station, the western part of the centre of the city, slicing through a carriage, a wall and, police say, into two other trains. Seven people are killed. --
9.47 am: An explosion blows apart the number 30 double-decker bus from northern London's Hackney to central Marble Arch. Two die.

Police said the total came to 37 confirmed deaths and total casualties at 700. "

i'm deeply shaken when i heard the news of the London Bomb Blast. Images of the September 11 attacks came back to haunt me.

i remember i used to rush back home after school just to watch the news of the attack.

Images and Videos of planes crashing into the towers and interviews by victims and passerbys, i cant help but feel so distraught.

What do they hope to gain for doing these acts?

Why cant we just all live peacefully like we used to. Innocent lives taken, families torn apart, lost of loves one.

Especially after London has just won the bid to host the Olympic, how will this affect them?

I cant bear to imagine if the bombs went off during the celebration for winning the vote where mass Londoners gathered.

A day of mourning.
My condolences to the people of London.

Flickr

2005-07-07T10:05:00.000+08:00

Because i'm so bored at work, and with my trusty com by my side, i've been blog hopping so much recently. Noticed my links has increased a little. I don't think they would mind if i link them right?.. i hope.

anyway, i've been doing up my Flickr these days. Its so cool especially that Zeitgeist! Notice that little picture displayer on the right just above my links. Though sometimes the pics are repeated in the same window but overall is just so cool. I like.

Feeling pretty jittery right now because i realised that on the front right bumper of my sis car, there were some pretty big scratches. I doubt its me who had caused it. Except for mounting a kerb, nothing uneventful happened.

She hasnt message or called me yet so that might be a good sign.

Or she hasnt noticed it yet.

* clasp my hand * I pray.

LATEST NEWS!

2005-07-06T20:09:00.000+08:00

Steven Gerrald, originally uploaded by ristanto.

Gerrard ready to sign four year contract

" Steven Gerrard has revealed he could sign a new four-year contract with Liverpool today - and promised Reds fans he will never put them through any more emotional turmoil. "

What a sudden change of events! He is staying with the Reds! Woo!

Goodbye Liverpool

2005-07-06T13:21:00.000+08:00

stevengerrard, originally uploaded by ristanto.

Stevie G is kissing Liverpool Good Bye after talks of the new contract broke down.

" Steven Gerrard has spoken of his anguish at quitting Liverpool - but that pain is nothing compared to the misery of the supporters he has rejected. Just 41 days after he lifted the European Cup and declared his intention to stay at Anfield, Gerrard has told Reds officials he wants to leave. "

The anfield boy is finally leaving his home club although he had dismissed rumours that he will leave the club after their victory at Istanbul.

Mayb its time for Xabi Alonso to reign.

Good Bye Steven Gerrald. Thank you for bringing us the cup and dun blame us for turning our backs on you should u return to Anfield.

With great Powers, Comes great Responsiblities

2005-07-05T16:58:00.000+08:00

Remember i said that my laptop was taken away by another guy?

well, he can have it for as long as he wants, because after days of pestering by my supervisor, i finally have my own KICKASS COM IN THE TRAINING ROOM!.

Flat Screen, P4, winXP. what more can i ask for.

But as always, good things do not always come free. My supervisor had a little chat with me telling me abit about the current situation with the admin department and all.. Apparently, that admin lady wasnt really keen on letting me have my own com in the training room.

" He might not be productive "

HA! shes so right. but i feel bad if i get caught or anything using the net and all, it might put a bad image on my supervisor so for that i've to restrain myself. As much as possible.

O yeah, i still have to do the stupid account switching stuffs.Argh. But Its well worth it i guess.

With any computer when working, comes great responsibilities.

Cold and internet-less wednesday

2005-06-29T12:39:00.000+08:00

Question :
what could be worse then having to go to work when your still recovering from a flu?

Answer :
Stepping into my room, on my laptop, and realise that somebody has disabled my internet.

i would love to roar and swear so loudly but me being sick and having a sorethroat, could only manage a wimply, farking hell..

why am i able to blog right now?

thats because i usually login using this account name SChandra which the administrator has so cruely disable the net. I then remember that i too have my own account before, and voila.. net.

but the thing is that, with my own account, i couldnt access the blardy internal network resulting in me having to stick to the old chandra. sigh.. gotta like 45 mins more to surf all i want before lunch break ends.

btw, do check out Carrie UnderWood's song. - inside your heaven.

What lies ahead?

2005-06-27T10:15:00.000+08:00

The cool breeze caressed my face and deep down, how i wished it was her fingers instead. The swirling of the fan, voices of conversation and laughters surrounded us. Occasional footsteps crept up behind me as the newly arrived strangers chose their spots. I gave a quick glance before taking a sip of my ice tea. Our conversation continued.

We were at west coast park. Its only the 2nd time i've actually been there, and i'm beginning to take a liking to the place. Munching on our fries, desmond and i chatted. Our conversation were serious but light hearted. We have known each other for coming 8 years now and i believe that if theres anyone who knows me best, it has gotta be him.

i brought up the topic on her. or rather, i chose to. i needed someone to talk to. someone to lend me a listening ear. to hear my say. and there i unleashed, though it wasnt in a serious tone, i thought i would crack up at some point. Brief but effective, i felt better.

we left macdonalds and took a walk through the park. like little kids, we hopped on one of the " ride " in the playground. Stood on it, and we began swinging front and back with our hands just gripping on the wheel of the ride.

Up and Down. It continued. Its just like life aint it. That reminded me of one of my post on the " SpringBoard of Love ". For Her.
I nearly choked. The pain was still there. and i guess, only she can heal it. But then again, i too have hurt her. Rather deeply.

I know shes sad. I feel the same. Am i going to keep deluding myself. deep down i know there is still something there. yearning for something.

Alot Like Love

2005-06-26T18:46:00.000+08:00

I'm hooked on this song from the movie ' Alot like Love ' which stars Ashton Kutcher and Amanda Peet.

It was sung by bon jovi, not sure if you peeps out there have actually heard it b4 it was on the show. anyway this is how it goes.

I guess this time you're really leaving
I heard your suitcase say goodbye
And as my broken heart lies bleeding
You say true love it's suicide

You say you're cried a thousand rivers
And now you're swimming for the shore
You left me drowning in my tears
And you won't save me anymore

Now I'm praying to God you'll give me one more chance, girl

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

I know you know we're had some good times
Now they have their own hiding place
I can promise you tomorrow
But I can't buy back yesterday

And Baby you know my hands are dirty
But I wanted to be your valentine
I'll be the water when you get thirsty, baby
When you get drunk, I'll be the wine

I'll be there for you
These five words I swear to you
When you breathe I want to be the air for you
I'll be there for you
I'd live and I'd die for you
Steal the sun from the sky for you
Words can't say what a love can do
I'll be there for you

friday

2005-06-24T14:00:00.000+08:00

The reason i'm blogging so much today is because i'm on strike. From work.

come to think of it, i shouldnt even be working today. sigh.

i was like 2 - 3 mins late meeting my auntie under my flat today.
usually i would be the earlier one, but today due to having to dress up my leg infections wounds, i took longer then expected.

so there i was waiting for her at my usual spot.. it was 8 already and i thought i caught a glimpse of our company transport.

me: "where are u? i think the bus is here"
she: "i thought u not working today, u late never tell me"
me: "but i waiting for you downstairs now le"
she: "we left already.. nvm today u dun work"

at that moment i was really stunned. There i was all ready. and then the words caught up with me.

" nvm today you dun work "

a joy of jubilation ran through my body and i had the urge to just do flintstone style yaba daba doo.

went home.. went in my parents room and told my mum that the transport left without me and my auntie say i dun have to work.

went in my room and began making my bed.. on the air con. my phone rang.

it was her.
the lady who told me not to work.
my auntie.

she :"terence, you take cab down"
me :" FARK U LA "

nah i didnt say that.

come on shes my auntie, shes nice. i like her.

i couldnt do anything but comply.
she told me that she'll pay my cab fare which cost me exactly 10 bucks.

so there i was, back to work today, and whats worse.

as soon as i stepped in, my supervisor came. she shook her head like some bobbling doll.

* shaking her head * she said :"hai.. do u understand what blah blah.. blah.. "

i decided then, 24th Friday. I'm on a strike. At least 75% on strike that is.

* nods head *

Inspirations

2005-06-24T12:52:00.000+08:00

everyone is looking for an inspiration in everything they do.
if your playing soccer, you'll most probably look up to Ronaldinho
if your playing basketball, mayb someone like Wallace.

Its quite generalised from the way i've put it but what about little stuffs? Little ambitions or dreams that you look into idols or even friends as a source for you to be inspired.

i'll be enlisting in september and i'm pretty sure that i'm not gonna spend the next 2 years of mine slacking away. i yearn to make something out of this 2 years. therefore i've decided to strive hard and become an OFFICER.

OFFICER TERENCE NEO KAM WENG. how cool.

Alright now that i've got my goal set up, its time i look on to my inspiration and i got lucky.

my inspiration.
Tan Wei Jian

Wei Jian was once a very close friend of mine in the good old secondary sch days.. then we sorta got separated as he was smarter then me. darn.

hes a very jovial guy, almost like myself and hes vertically challenged too. HA
tts why i love hanging out with him and i hate hanging out with you Benjamin AKA Scoop. ( if your reading this, meet up soon alright )

seeing weijian in ocs is really unexpected. Call me bias or a guy with lousy foresight, but i just cant so picture him in ocs. I am wrong once again.

OCS here i come.

ZoooOOoo

2005-06-21T20:23:00.000+08:00

Went to the zoo on sunday. Nothing much new from the last time i went except for the white tiger and girrafe. Hmm.. Here are some pics.

Me and Winnie

Johnson , me and winnie

one of the latest attractions in zoo. Notice how stoned johnson is.

Cockroach and Me

2005-06-20T14:54:00.000+08:00

Finally i've got back my net access in work!.. currently i'm stationed in the training room with a laptop which is like the best thing that has happen so far for me.. alone in a room with internet.. heh.. friendster.. msn.. looking at half naked gers ( damn its removed ) .. u know the rest..

on the other hand, i nearly got freaked out by a cockroach today.. not that i'm extremely terrified of cockroaches, but i aint a big fan of them either. I admit they do give me the creeps at time especially the flying ones.

anyway i was doing my documentation as usual when i suddenly felt something on my leg.. i thought it was just my jeans. Then it didnt felt right.. something was definitely in there.. i shoke my leg and to my horror, this black thing drop out.

i have no idea how it got in there.. with one mighty sweep of my feet, "he" flew across the floor. "He" was on his back and struggling to get back on his feets. i decided to leave it alone assuming it cant and would eventually starve to death. or something.

i was wrong.

"He" actually succeeded and worse still, has disappeared from my sight. Now.. i was beginning to really feel jittery again. occasionally glancing from side to side. I just hate the feeling of knowing something is there without actually knowing where is it.

and then.. from the corner of my eyes, i spotted him trying to sneak up on me from behind. "He" is one smart roach i tell you.

It scrambled towards a stack of worksheets n files.

* how convenient * i thought.

*SMACK*, it laid still. partially flattened. I felt sick. and decided to just leave it there for awhile. didnt want to touch it.

suddenly i thought i noticed "he" kinda changed position. i was surprise.. it was still alive. Hes a fighter i can tell you. Taking no chances, i took the file and began sweeping him towards the door and out into the corridor.

and there "he" was gone.

Terence 1 - Cockroach 0.

My Bad

2005-06-18T00:24:00.000+08:00

Judging from all the negative comments that i've received so far and to prevent anymore,
i hereby apologise to all gers out there for having even that slightest of perception that mayb his side view kinda resembles the old me. Truthfully i didnt know he was Long Ze Xiu Min until you all said so. I thought it was just some comic character or something.

I sincerely apologise if i did caused any of the following aftershocks.

- occasional puking
- spoiling idol's image
- tendancy to slaughter me if you do see me on the streets
- more puking.

Peace.

Me?

2005-06-14T22:38:00.000+08:00

Strangely i came across this pic on winnie's blog and seriously, i thought it really resembles me when i had long hair.

what do u guys think? or those who actually know how i look

a little bout myself

2005-06-14T12:51:00.000+08:00

bearing in mind that there should probably be more readers now, i thought it would be a little wise to do a little intro about myself. Furthermore, i bet many of you doesnt really know whats happening in my life right now, not that i can blame you guys heh.

alright i have just graduated from Singapore Polytechnic holding a Diploma in Business Information Technology. Dreadfully awaiting for every guy's nightmare. Yes the national service. Am enlisting on 9/9/05. Convert it to chinese and it sends shivers down my spine..

- jiu - jiu -. now what that means..

is currently working part time now at tuas. I'm very surprised that asking around, i have like hmm 6 other friends working in tuas too.. Watch out, tuas is gonna be the next happening place in singapore. Its a pretty boring place to be exact but at least i'm kept entertained by listening on to the conversations of my older colleagues.

o the conversations are really hilarious at times.trust me.

Recently i'm pretty much a weekly clubber at double o. Retro music gets me going always. I know many people are secretly laughing at the mambo people on the podium doing the funny actions and all, but its pretty fun once u know a few.

much have changed in my life since " she " left me. but i'm glad for all my buddies who stood by me always. Have been trying to pack my schedules as tightly as possible to keep me occupied. i guess it helped.. but back to the middle of the night, the silhoutte of her still appears before me. her lovely smile.

yeah i do miss her but i'm glad shes moving on well..

O yeah was reading Digital Life today and i came across the section on Setting up Dates on Blogs! Way cool.. i shall try it tonight when i have time to post.. heh check back!

Amazing Winnie

2005-06-13T22:11:00.000+08:00

Simple Amazing, in less then 15 mins or so, i've got 2 new readers. Through sincere curiousity and advertisement in winnie's blog or bribery, i do not wish to know, but hell yeah~ the advertisement is working already. Think thats cool? Wait till you see who has drop by!.

its ting , or so i assume thats her name but i love reading her blog! such coincidence.
ok that makes my day, or at least for blogging.

no use for a title

2005-06-13T21:48:00.000+08:00

Hello! I'm Terence, and i'm still alive. /me waves

sorry for the absence in my posts these weeks but i think i've contracted what they call a blogger breakdown or something. lots of activities and happenings but i just cant seem to put it down in words everytime. ah well..

alright i've just been officially linked to winnie's blog which she proclaimed to be read by ~~millions~~ thousands of readers, therefore i'm so freakin excited that finally there may be people who would visit mine!

Just to make sure that she isnt bragging about her high hits and references to her friends, dear fellow linkers of winnie, please do drop me a comment indicating that its through her that your right here in my blog. heh just a little survey. thanks a million!

The weekend bday

2005-05-30T08:32:00.000+08:00

Sorry if this post is kinda delayed but have been pretty busy lately. So heh chill?

I have finally turned 20 thus beginning my new life of Chapter Two. Whats more to come of this journey of mine?.. What will happen during my life in army?..

Whatever it is, i am glad that at at least there are a few people who i believe will stand by and walk with me no matter what happens.. u all should know who u r.. Thanks. =)

Live life to the fullest. Thats my Chapter 2 Resolution

Fri 27th.

My birthday weekend was kicked off when i met Eline in evening time. Its actually the first time we meet up since erm we went our separate ways. It was nice to see her again.. she looked to have grown prettier and seemed quite cheerful.

Ah the tortures i had put her through. kiddin.
seriously kiddin.

anyway guess what she got me!?

1) Selfmade mussels and clams spagetti
2) Crunches from Royce
3) Polo T from Bodynits

A pity the spagetti kinda got dried up by the time i ate it but its the thought that counts right.
along with a few grains of sands in the clams but overall it wasnt bad for a first try.. much better then me..

thanks.

met up with some of my ex sec sch mates at outram.. headed for this pub call club37 or something.. Wish to thank Desmond so very much for taking time to plan up this for me..

Thanks Bro.

alright now that i've thank u.

shit u bro?. this jerk bro of mine was trying to get me drunk all whole night and well he sorta got himself a lil too drunk as well.. turned out to be me sending him home instead.. * good grief *
and this guy didnt seemed like puking in the cab so i thought alright. to my horror in the lift.

Des : give me the plastic bag.
Me : huh just now give u alrdy wat i dun have it.
Des : ( expressions changes drastically )

as soon as the lift door opens, he flew out there and viola. Waterfall. Not just a mini one, a huge one!... spending the next 15 mins washing up the area and all.. Thanks for the memory!.

sat 28th.

Met up with swee wei and gang for awhile to play pool. They gave me a 50 bucks adidas voucher! it was the best timing ever.. thanks guys! Met up with my parents for dinner at miramar hotel for a japanese buffet dinner.. its really good.

and then the real party got underway~ headed down to double o. Met up with kazuki, peishan and Huifang! Havent seen her in ages and seriously never for one moment before i'll expect her to come, until peishen told me. i was like so freakin excited to see her again. She is afterall one of my great sister in sch.

dun think theres much to elaborate anymore but i'll like to thank everyone there for coming ( either by coincidence or whatsoever )

Sanada, janson, Peishan, Huifang, Jeff, Caiwei , Winnie and her friends ( got most of my drinks from them ) and last but not least how can i forgot my dearest Kazuki

Thanks for asking people to come down and partying the night away with me! Love Ya guys!
and thanks for all the present! namely.

A topman Woolen Cap ( kazuki, shee chze )
Royce Crunches, Spagetti, Bodynits ( eline )
Cake, Chivas, Black Label ( Desmond and gang! )
Adidas Perfume ( Caiwei )
Havannas Slippers! ( Jia Xi * psst* thanks dude. heh )
Stenciled Tshirt which is unwearable. for display only ( jolene)
Pink baleno T ( Peishan , Huifang )

Thanks ALOT! i mean it. Its one of my best birthday season ever. so till the next ! Save up!

Liverpool - European Cup 2005 Champions

2005-05-26T16:30:00.000+08:00

Istanbul morphed to became Istanpool last night as the might Ac Milan Took on Liverpool FC for the European Cup Finals. I was there, along with MingQuan and a whole loads of liverpool supporter at MIA ( made in anfield ) which was the official liverpool clubhouse.

What a match. What a night. A match of such high calibre that almost all expressions could be witness throughout. There i was along with the rest, stunned and shellshocked when milan put one pass dudek within the first minute of the match.

As i look on the next 45 mins, with crespo getting both goals, there i was wondering whether the prophecy and destiny wasnt going to be true. That Liverpool was gonna lose the match. No one hoped much for them. Going for the halftime break, i could sense dejection, depressed fans some cursing while some just moan about.

And then it came. The 6 mins blitz that Liverpool scored 3 times. The atmosphere was phenomenal. We nearly brought the building to its ground. We cheered, jumped, hugged strangers and gave high fives. There we werent strangers. We are the Kopes. The Reds. Bonding together, we cheered on liverpool as much as we could from where we were, our hearts were together with them.

Our hearts skipped a beat when Shevcenko was through on goal and blasted the shot towards dudek not once but twice in a space of 4 seconds forcing 2 brilliant saves from the dudek. We rejoiced and cheered, we knew that meant something. It was our night to be.

The atmosphere was tense. No one was leaving for the toilet. Shoulders locked and banners and flags flying about. It was finally going to end. The champions was to be decided on penalty kicks.

Prayers could be heared, silence as Serginho took up spot. and within 10 seconds, "Anfield" erupted once more. Joys of tears could be seen on some faces. I jumped and screamed. As i turned and looked at Ming Quan, his expression was priceless. He was sensationally happy. i could tell. and so was everyone else. We cheered and shout like there was no tomorrow and the last saved by Dudek, we became Champions. After 20 years.

Liverpool FC. European Cup Champions.

The party wasnt over as " You'll never walk alone " rang through the whole building. Even as proceeded down the escalator of UE Square, the whole building was in once voice, in unison as we continued to cheer and sing the way down. It was just mesmerizing to picture that with looking up you see fans waving flags and towels and jubilation around the entire building. And as i stepped out of it, i felt like i've just been to anfield itself.

You'll never walk alone.

vesak day

2005-05-24T11:46:00.000+08:00

usually i dun really give a damn whether its a public holiday or not becoz given my life when i'm not working,everyday seems like a holiday.

but its different this time. its Vesak Day! public holiday = no work.
that means i cant possibly stay home and waste such a wonderfulday. kazuki and me took up the offer by Caiwei to head down to eastcoastparkwith her friends. i mean why not? been a long time since i went and well at leasttheres somethign to do right.

when ur at east coast, of course you have to cycle right else its likeu haven been there. So cycle we did. i barely survived my first pedal though.it was like ages since i last cycled. but being the maestro i am, i was standing on the seats ofthe bike in a few mins and strutting my stuffs like an acrobat.

at the jetty, hmm it was really relaxing and all.. carefree no worries. just sitting there and cracking jokeswhile getting burned by the sun. o well, haven been out in the sun for a long time now. Have been hanging out with Kazuki and Caiwei lately through the double o nights and also got to know another guy. its just cool.

simple but meaningful day.

Kidding Myself

2005-05-23T23:04:00.000+08:00

Keeping myself occupied with work
Going out with friends at every opportunity
Doing stuffs to keep my mind from wandering off
but in the end i realised i'm just kidding myself
its back to square one
where we let off
i'm still miss u.

Simple Night

2005-05-23T10:17:00.000+08:00

Met up with Bell at esplanade last night. It was kinda a last minute thing and i got Des to join along too since he seemed to have nothing better to do.. haha

They brought me to the roof terrace which i really have never been to before. usually i just walk along the river. The view from up there was magnificant. Looking down on the crowds and looking up to the sky seeing the stars and moon, with gentle breezes stroking us accompanied by a band who certainly lift up the atmosphere.

All in all, i felt i could really just spend the entire night there. Almost.

Accompanied bell for dinner before kazuki picked des and me up for some supper with 2 of his friends.

Simple nights like that makes my day.

May 28th

2005-05-18T22:34:00.000+08:00

ATTENTION! IMPORTANT ANNOUNCEMENT

Just to inform that my bday is coming. 28th of May to be exact. so its just a gentle reminder to save up all allowances now and get me something alright?

Heres my wishlist.

Adidas Jacket ( best is brown and beige )
Long sleeves shirt ( do check the size though, might be a lil big. )
Shoes
subaru wrx / honda integra

alright thats about it until i can think of anything to add.
and i'm still planless for that day so if u wish to date me, do let me know alright. heh .

work

2005-05-17T07:39:00.000+08:00

743am. eating dumpling.
leaving for work in approximately 5 mins time.
gonna be a long day..

Zouk

2005-05-12T04:04:00.000+08:00

i'm back to blogging. well that is until i feel that the water is warm enough for me to take my comfy little bath. As a matter of fact, i just reached home from zouk and my head is still kinda spinning away a little and my feet hurts.

didnt drove to zouk today cause sis was coming back late so the alcohol limit was raised and i just drank.. i'm glad to meet many old secondary sch frens today and its really wonderful time to spend with them. i mean i seldom go club with them yeah.

was at the top level bar and making my way to the dance floor with the rest of the pack and this auntie ( i named her auntie because she kinda looks old ) who smiled at me, obviously i smiled back ( actually i was kinda under the influence of alcohol ) but i still managed to make out what she say.

Ni tiao de hen shuai ( decipher it urself )

which apparently led to an uproar by Forest but its the first time it has happened to me.

the dance floor was packed as usual and i've no idea why but i climbed onto the podium stage and started dancing away. Ah .. the magic of alchohol again.

anyway it was a blast of a time i had and a pity the night has ended.
o well.

Officially Graduated

2005-05-05T15:38:00.000+08:00

I have officially graduated from Singapore Polytechnic with a useless
Diploma in Business Information Technology which most probably will lead me nowhere in the society thus having to take another path in life.

my grades are as follow
Technoprenuer - B
Final Year Project - B+
Communication skill in business - B+
Mcom - C

the c kinda spoils it all.. o well.. its one of my most promising results in my poly years though and i really have to thank her.

Thanks Eline.

This 3 years has passed so quickly that it seemed like yesterday when i first entered the auditorium and meet my classmates.

3 years later,

we have bonded well. From pool sessions - > ktv sessions - > soccer bettings, a friendship bond of 7 guys thats so strong. We see through each other down time and i'm glad for all your listening ears at times.

may we keep in contact always and continue more pool punches.

Lifeless Creature

2005-05-03T18:20:00.000+08:00

Work
Sleep
Watch tv
Work
Sleep
Watch tv

This has pretty much been my daily routine. Reaching home in the late night seems all so familiar to me. The street lamps and stray cats are my only companions everyday as i walked down the path to my block.

Sometimes as i stare at the stars above, i wonder what shes doing?. Does she still think of me?

Listening to songs played on radio, i realise the lyrics of certain songs certainly holds much meaning to it.

Take care all

New Regime

2005-04-29T13:38:00.000+08:00

Have been staying at home since last saturday. my bed and computer were my only companions along with occasional magazines that my sister brought home. Never felt so bored before and i'm really even having difficulty writing this post. It seems that my brain cells have all depleted.

as usual my dad has been bugging me to head back to gym. he said i've slimmed. and yes i think i might have. how hideous and dreadful.

gonna heed his advice now.

do u believe in horoscope?

2005-04-25T13:49:00.000+08:00

You weren't on your game last week, mostly because you were concentrating on a certain someone and quite unable to think about much else. Well, it's a whole new workweek, and this time out, you'll need to have your wits about you. Even if you have to force yourself, you really must put all your energy into the task at hand. You can do it. Focus, now. Focus.

got this from friendster horoscope.

Insomnia

2005-04-24T12:52:00.000+08:00

Having real difficulty falling asleep since yesterday. As soon as i lay in the dark, all thoughts and memories came flooding back to me, i tried to shut it out, but i cant. All i could do was reminisce on them. I couldnt sleep. I didnt want to. She seemed so close to me. Reality sinks in.
I was all alone. Felt so much like a fool.

had to pop a pill.
i miss her so much.

Lab

2005-04-19T13:02:00.000+08:00

i'm currently in sch lab right now. have to come back to finish up some fyp stuffs. our project is going to be exibited on 5th May. Not that i care.

and once again boon siang has put me airoplane. the same old reason - overslept.

i'm really curious as to whether he would overslept if its rose asking him.. i wonder if he had even made an effort to wake up early today.. if only he can place his priorities right and not take everything so lightly as he always does.

it could well backfire on him one day.

i'm alone freezing ( except for a lizard on the ceiling ) in the lab and i havent ate anything yet since i woke up. i have no idea wat i am to do now. farked up afternoon

2nd intake. September

2005-04-14T14:30:00.000+08:00

Just received my enlistment letter. for a moment i thought that i would definitely be among the 1st intake..

You are hereby required under Section 10 of the Enlistment Act ( Cap 93 ), to report for enlistment on 9th September 2005(Fri) at 0830am. to Basic Military Training Center School 2.

sigh

Ord!

2005-04-14T12:02:00.000+08:00

I've completed all my modules and all exams for my diploma in Business Information Technology making me Operational Ready. I may also be promoted to an Alumni of Singapore Poly. How cool is that?

Couple of my friends have received their ~~entry to hell~~ enlistment letter and from what i have gathered so far,

guan bing will be enlisting on 11th june which he seems to be super excited and enthu about, good grief which i've no idea why. mayb the idea of finally becomnig a real man spurs him on.

swee wei enlisting on 22th july because he doesnt have to go in ptp even though failing to achieve a silver. Hes got a dislocated shoulder. I forgive him.

and now the question is..

wheres mine?

argh.. i still haven receive it. I heard that if the letter doesnt come within this week then you will be enlisted for the second intake which is like in september? ..

Hello?!! september? like its only april now. what the hell am i gonna do for the next few months? i just wanna get in get out and get it over with.

i just went on net to check if theres any news of enlistment.

Good afternoon Mr ~~NEO KAM WENG~~, TERENCE.Your enlistment is between June 2005 till November 2005. An enlistment notice will be sent to you two months before your enlistment date. For further enquiries, please call MINDEF eService Center at 1800-364 6333 or email to us at msc@miw.com.sg

doesnt this blardy mean i'm going to miss the first batch because it blardy hell means my date hasnt been given yet.

Its all about you

2005-04-02T01:15:00.000+08:00

If you like The Beatles then you'll definitely love this song by Mcfly.
instead of the same old pop and rock tune, this song reminds me of the Beatles singing. Really nice song! RetroLic Feeling.

Yesterday, you asked me something I thought you knew.
So I told you with a smile 'It's all about you'
Then you whispered in my ear and you told me to,
Say 'If you make my life worthwhile,
it's all about you'
And I would answer all you're wishes, if you asked me to.
But if you deny me one of your kisses, don't know what I'd do.
So hold me close and say three words, like you used to do.
Dancing on the kitchen tiles, it's all about you.
Yeah...[And I would answer all you're wishes, if you asked me to.
But if you deny me one of your kisses, don't know what I'd do.
So hold me close and say three words, like you used to do.
Dancing on the kitchen tiles,
Yes you make my life worthwhile,
So I told you with a smile...
It's all about you.
It's all about you
It's all about you, baby

True love

2005-03-31T20:59:00.000+08:00

Just caught Chase on tv.. Encouraged by Swee wei.
Truthfully, i wouldnt say its really that a lousy show because when a show features gorgeous people like linda liao and Utt.

I really have to admit hes damn good looking.

At the end of the show, something caught my attention.

What is true love?
When you see her flaws,
and you cant overlook her imperfection

but u still cant live without her.

something around that note.. cant really remember the exact words but u get my meaning.

how true.

The Practice

2005-03-29T23:56:00.000+08:00

It really isnt me to blog about tv programmes and movies but for this one time, i really cant control my urge to just burst out and scream

"THE PRACTICE" IS A FREAKING NICE SHOW!

phew, that felt real good now.. alright i know this is abit too late as the show has been going on for a long time now and i believe has also won many awards before but it was only recently that i started to pay 101% attention on the show.

For all those who are clueless about what show it is, you may check it out here

http://abc.go.com/primetime/thepractice/about.html

Do catch The Practice on Every Tuesday Night 11pm On 5!
Trust me. Its good. Real good.

and dun fear if u do not understand half the english they speak cause i cant catch it as well.

Fyp is over!

2005-03-24T15:20:00.000+08:00

Fyp is finally over! handed it up on tuesday and had our presentation done. Had a stressful and panicky period just before the presentation because of bugs and errors on our website. but as usual, Patricia solved it all.. what can i say.. pure genius.

what a long 4 months this have been.. from designs being rejected each time, till acceptance of it.. till the coding and finally integration.. we really have done it..

from the bottom of my heart, i really would like to thank Patricia for doing such a great job in leading us.. i know that there are periods where the atmosphere is tense but still,

Thank You Patricia!

Not forgetting the rest of the group. Qinying, Meijuan, Rose and Boon Siang. Really like to thank each and everyone of u for putting in ur own efforts and sacrifices for our projects! it has definitely been an enriching experience for me..

really hope that SPCARE would choose our project.
that would definitely be a dream come true..

Napfa Test

2005-03-17T12:07:00.000+08:00

Got a bronze for my napfa test on tuesday. It definitely wasnt enough. argh fark it. gotta go retake at toa payoh stadium soon.

i would do everything it takes to enter ns at a later date.

my fitness level have indeed dropped significantly.. Didnt really score well for all the stations except for Pull Up.. even my once confident 2.4 running took a dip.

think i ran a timing of 11 min or 12 for it.. didnt really get the actual reading but from a 9 min + runner to a 11-12 min, Ms Susan Lim ( my sec sch Track Coach ) must really be disappointed now.. the station that pulled me down was the standing board jump., just managing a 216cm jump. had to get at least 222.. argh

back to the old gyming, jogging and training days after my fyp.

I dun wanna wake up

2005-03-12T10:25:00.000+08:00

As the morning rays shine thru my windows,
i cant help but flinch,
Its going to be another day,
another day without u.

I dreamt of u last night,
we couldn't have been happier,
wrapping our arms around each other,
and i woke up,
reality sinks in.
It was never to be.

1/2 cooked spagettis and photo albums,
these memories i just cant forget,
our first valentine day we spent together,
and i was already planning for the next,
doubt it will ever take place,

i know your afraid of hurting me more,
but baby, i'm willing if its just to be with u longer
at least i know that when u leave,
we had been together for the longest possible moment,
only you can mend my broken heart now,
for no other gers around can..
eline, you can never be replaced.

everything isnt alright, it will nv be

2005-03-11T23:40:00.000+08:00

i'm tearing silently in my heart. what began as a hopeful day, has now came crushing back to earth. for each word i type, my heart aches as i think back on memories of just an hour ago. Estatic i was, ended sch at 8 and hurried to give eline a surprise visit. Had penned a letter the nite before specially for her.

upon seeing her, all emotions came gushing back to me. i was happy to see her. Delighted. passed her the letter and saw the all familiar smile that gotten me attracted to her in the first place. I felt good about it. really.

then we started smsing.

she is going to overseas for her further studies. had to say i was already quite prepared for it. I was quite prepared to wait for her and just hold on to the hope of it.

True, some may say, its really no easy feat. If u think that i do not know that, then you may go fuck urself. Fuck urself twice.

i'll definitely be sad when she leaves but i'm sure if we do trust our love and each other, somehow or rather, we'll definitely get through it. No one says its gonna be easy, and i admit that i too am not confident of it. But i'll definitely give it a shot. At least, we try to keep our love going. but eline felt so otherwise.

she doesnt want a long distance relationship.. maybe to her its better to end it now i guess.

this is just really killing me right now. Last week, we were all lovey dovey and suddenly, we are on the brink of ending our relationship. I have never ever tot that it might end this way. Never. Ever.

i'm just totally shattered right now. I know shes under alot of stress right now as her tests are coming and her parents are also giving her pressure. She got to do well for her exams to qualify for uni. All these shit just fucked up at the wrong time. Why must it happen at a time like this.. why..

i'm really at a lost of wat to do.. i really love her.. i really do.. i've decided to stop bothering her this 2 weeks. I dunno how am i suppose to do that right now.. looking back at the past messages that she has sent me.. it just hurt so fucking bad.. its just that bad.. i cant stop thinking about her.

if its a shame for guys to tear, then shame on me. because i really cant control it right now.

Is this the end?

2005-03-10T12:23:00.000+08:00

funny how this shd go.. i cant possibly find the correct word to portray my feelings right now.
heartbroken, sad, disappointed, hopeful, glum, pessimistic.

smsed eline after our phone call. i knew deep down inside there was lots she wanted to tell me, and it wasnt good. somehow deep in my heart, i wished that i was wrong. This time i was not.

am i really not suitable for her?

how do u deem suitable for each other in a relationship.. Same thoughts and understands her well. This was wat she said i lacked or wat she wanted.

i cant help but think, why do problems always occur after a quarrel. Is it because during that silent period that we sit down and reflect on each other?. Its because he/she dun understand me and unsuitable for me thats why we started the quarrel?.

then again, do we think bout such stuffs when we r in happy times. Almost always, i would be silently thinking, Damn Eline is my type of ger.

Is this the mentality of all couples? Is it just me. or does this happen to everyone out there.

10 months together. From what i feel, 10 months is a long time for us to confirm certain points about each other, yet on the other hand, 10 months is considered peanuts for other bigger factors..

Honestly, i do not wish to give up this relationship which i must say, has been my best. I really love her. and yes. I do love u alot Eline. Like i say, nv have i ever had such strong feeling and perserverance in a relationship for a ger..

We've had our fair share of problems, and each time, we managed to get over it and our relationship strengthened each time.

she too spoke of a barrier that she cant seem to get over it.. i've no idea what barrier is it but i hope that we give ourselves more time. 1 years? 2 years? no matter how long it takes, i'm willing to be with u till then u overcome it.

looking back on our photos that we've taken together, i really miss the great times that we been thru. i have alot to say, but now isnt really a great time for me to pen all my thoughts..

come what may, i'll will love u till the end of my dying days.

no use for a name

2005-03-07T15:11:00.000+08:00

i wanna blog but i cant gather all my thoughts at this moment. countless of topics that i would like to talk about, but i'm just not in the right of mood.

i'm completely in a loss right now. Fyp dateline drawing nearer, technoprenuer presentation and final report coming up, dateline for Mcom project. Then i'm kinda having a cold war with eline..

Feeling so helpless

i'm glad that there was time for a little chat with swee wei and johnson over lunch. this little chats really made me feel much better.. poured out quite a lot of my feelings at that time and i really felt much better.. appreciate their listening ears..

boon siang is hopelessly in love now with his love of his life - rose.

they seemed to be unseperatable. making out everynow and then.

is this the honeymoon period that everyone is talking about? .. what will happen after that?

i cant help but admit that recently eline and me have been quarreling much. Even though we seldom chat for the day, only in the night, our phone calls usually ends abruptly and unpleasantly.. Bickering over the slightest of issue.

are we getting to the point where our patience seem to be wearing out for each other? .. i just hope that its because of projects and datelines that we both are getting pretty stress up and therefore vent our frustration.

for all you admirers of me, i'm confidently sure that 100% of you would agree with me that i look young for my age.. 20 this year? i mean who would believe? but then again, thats just the way i've look since. Since secondary school, i doubt i ever looked like my age..

what i'm trying to reach out here, is that after 10 months being together, i'm really wondering why eline is still bothered that i look immatured? Looks are deceiving. Sure, there are many times when i certainly do stuffs that are childish and all but then again, when there is a need for it, obviously i'm up to my age.

" I dun like it "

funny how this 4 words have such an effect on me till today since it was spoken out.

i knew that you minded it when when we were still in the early stages of our relationship, and somehow deep in my mind, i believed that going down the road, it wouldnt be an issue anymore.. now 10 months down, u are still doubtful bout it.

I said " Apparently, i was wrong "

and then u broke my heart once again by saying

"Apparently, u didnt change "

Hectic Week.. More to come

2005-03-04T10:15:00.000+08:00

Thank God Its Friday! really need the weekends to rest..

the dateline for my Mobile Commerce as well as Fyp is impending.. sometimes i just sit back and wonder.. time passes really fast eh.. like it 1 month time or so, i'm gonna graduate..

that brings me to it. My napfa is coming soon ..

Gold = $200 . Fail = PPT

Think i'll get the latter taking into consideration my fitness now. 3 years back, i would have been confident that i could at least get a silver.. i'm really getting old.. The thought of enlisting into ns 6 weeks earlier is really goddamn boring.. 2 years is more then enough.. however it seems that many of my friends have given up and are readying themselves for ppt.

btw

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIAN BOON SIANG

touched arent u? finally there are people who remember ur birthday. A pity i'm rather short on cash now or i'll definitely get u the Zara top. too bad ..

alright i'm really struggling with my mcom at this moment now.. i'm not really strong in coding and rose has decided not to turn up for practical.. must be busy preparing some stuffs for the birthday boy.. o well .. i forgive her for that.

peace out

Back Back Back

2005-03-01T19:16:00.000+08:00

I'm back to the world of blogging~ at least for now.. been pretty busy with the past few days with the car, soccer bettings and stuffs. Hectic, tiring and expensive weekend i had. i'm broke like hell.. think i gotta go find a part time job or something..

spent like half the day helping Audrey with her website as well as doing my final year project.. argh.. hectic hectic day~!

suggested to her that me and boon siang will help her do like half of all the pages and mayb we can get like 40% of whatever the cost is..

tml is my Ict Street Soccer tournament! been taking part in it since year 1 without fail.. hope that we can secure a first place finish with our star studded team lineup this year. with boon siang back in our squad, we recruited 2 other talent into our team, and the dislocating shoulder - swee wei and the never passing king - jeffery.

did i mention that once again for the 3rd time running, i am the captain once again. ( or because its me who always does the registration and stuffs )

Presenting to u

Team Ham & Egg + Sausage

Sigh

2005-02-23T09:38:00.000+08:00

Not having a great start today.. sigh..
lessons at 11 and i'm up at like 730am? couldnt get my self back to sleep for some reason or so..

can only hope that everything gets better today..

$$ flying away

2005-02-21T12:42:00.000+08:00

Lost 200 bucks this weekend! haha got more suay or not! sigh..
considering the fact that i won pretty much last few weeks i guess in the end i'm like winning.. 10 bucks? haha

but then again, v day itself had burned a very big hole in my levis jeans. 501 reborn mind u.
argh money money money. i need money.

sigh.. gotta go clinch my first free-lance job by hook or by crook else i dunno how in the world am i gonna survive the coming weeks..

mayb i'll sell my ass or something. Its grade A top quality.

Toto

2005-02-17T20:37:00.000+08:00

5 12 13 30 31 43 39

anyone strike?! the closest i got is

5 11 13 22 30 37 .. sigh.. to think of it the no. are quite clos eh.. maybe next year i guess.
there goes my dream for my bmw.. back to soccer betting ~

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

2005-02-15T22:22:00.000+08:00

So no one told you life was gonna be this way.
Your job's a joke, you're broke, your love life's D.O.A.
It's like you're always stuck in second gear,When it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year,

I'll be there for you!(When the rain starts to pour)
I'll be there for you!(Like I've been there before)
I'll be there for you ('Cause you're there for me too)

You're still in bed at ten and work began at eight,
You've burned your breakfast so far, things are going great,
Your mother warned you there'd be days like these,
But she didn't tell when the world has brought you down to your knees.

really miss watching the friends series. brings back memories.
if only i have such a close and nice group of friends.

Mcom will be a disaster

2005-02-13T23:47:00.000+08:00

Sigh, i'm really tryin to get myself in the mood to study but it seem that i really cant concentrate at all.. every now and then my mind would wander off to another dimension and never back to the topic..

i guess i'm kinda doomed.. mayb its still early right now.. i usually can only study at late night but that would mean sacrificing some sleep..

argh.. why must there be a test tml. it totally spoils the whole week.

9 more mins to ~~Valentine~~ money sucking day.!

Happy getting leeched!

Mcom

2005-02-13T11:17:00.000+08:00

Mobile Commerce Test 14th Feb 2005.

To hell with that. i totally agree with jielin. i mean who the hell would schedule test after a holiday especially Chinese New Year. If you ask me, it must be some malay or indian guy. Furthermore, its on valentine's day.

mayb i should rephrase that.

It must be scheduled by some malay/indian guy who cant find any dates on vday.
bloody idiot.

and i haven even really started studying yet. damn it.. even boon siang have started!!
i mean thats like WHAT THE HELL?

boon siang -> wakes up -> studies

HAH! more then meets the eye

Cny

2005-02-09T03:03:00.000+08:00

Gong Xi Fa Cai!
wishing all my dear blogders a very happy chinese new year.

just came back from watching " Racing Stripes " with desmond.. hmm i wouldnt say its really really great but its kinda alright i guess. The plot is pretty much predictable but the conversations are nonetheless entertaining.

the fact that i'm blogging right now is cause my hair is still wet, and msn is down.

darn it

i'm currently deciding what to wear tml. the a long sleeve shirt from Seed? or a stripe ( note : it doesnt have any connection with the movie racing stripes ) t-shirt from Zara.

guess i'll probably end up wearing the stripe tshirt i guess.

u noe i'm watching channel 8 right now and there is this variety show for the cny. then there is
Fei Ge ( zhong yi da ge da that guy ).

for a moment, i tot he sorta resembles a zebra.

guess i'm gonna hit the sack now.
hope i'll get plenty of ang bao this year. i'm really in need of cash.

p/s : any good place to recommend for dinner?

let me scream

2005-02-08T16:02:00.000+08:00

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
HHHHHh

I M AT FAULT AT EVERY SINGLE STUFF.
I HAVE TO BE FORCED BEFORE I BLOG BOUT HER
I DUN BUY HER STUFFS WHEN I'M OUT SHOPPING
I'M A INSENSITIVE BASTARD

i must be the lousiest boyfriend. i must be .. the fucking lousiest boyfriend. sometimes i wonder why am i alive in this world.

i just wanna scream. let me scream and burn the microwave!
- limit break -

my weekend

2005-02-08T14:11:00.000+08:00

to sum it up like what swee wei did.

1) Bet soccer matches
2) Played pool
3) drove
4) shopping
5) Fyp
6) More soccer betting

sigh pardon me for not blogging much but really not in the mood right now. i'm tired of everything happening around. ciao.

and happy new year to all.

Monster in 105

2005-02-04T09:37:00.000+08:00

as i stood at the bus stop, it seemed like any other ordinary dull friday. Nothing seemed outta the ordinary.

i looked at my watch. 910. gonna be late again, just then the all too familiar 105 appeared round the corner. i heaved a sigh of relief.

boarded the bus.

as usual, made my way to the back of the bus. i spotted many empty seats. Great.

wait. something was amiss. the lady infront of me looked at the empty seat to the right but didnt sat down, instead she looked for another.

Weird i thought

i advanced carefully. then i spotted.

bird droppings. on the last seat, and the 2 seats on the right from behind.

suddenly outta nowhere, the "monster" appeared. frantic obviously.

* I drew my sword and chop off its head *

actually i pluck up my courage and sat at one of the un-dirtied seat. my eyes scrutinising the bird to the last detail. and of coz make sure he doesnt poops on me. i swore under my breathe i will personally dispose of him.

i looked at the disaster hit areas, bird droppings, bird urine.. argh gross

the monster was obviously panicking thus resulting in the mess.
he was in an unfamiliar area, it was cold, there were many humans around

( too bad he/she cant notice that it seemed most of the people around showed more fear )

the monster made his move. opening his black and hideous wings, he began to swoop round the back area. i swift and swirled around fearing that he may just accidentall bang into me.

and then something happened.

he poops again. Omfg, this guy/ger is still pooping around!

clearly i realise i was in grave danger.

without warning, the monster flew and landed on the handgrip infront of my seat. i knew that was a sign. using my utmost reflexes and agility, i darted my legs and bag to the left. i was outta of the attack zone. then . he urined.

i looked at the aircon on top and prayed. thank god.

the monster now then flew to the sit infront causing much panick among the other passengers. aunties shifting about, uncles waving their hands. from the corner of my eyes, i saw another dropping being launched. i could hardly contain my laughter at the sight.

the monster had shifted its position, i was saved.

the monster was clearly wanting to get out of the bus, it was banging against the windows.

then the little demon was standing at the door, clearly, he had became more intellectual that he have to wait for the door to open.

what a smart bird

finally he was let off into the wild and freedom of trees and air.

but not before scanning his ez-link card.

Dyed Hair

2005-02-03T10:21:00.000+08:00

Got my hair done yesterday at SandStorm

Highlight, Dye and cut which cost me a whopping 114 bucks. Thank god for some vouchers which totalled up to 90 bucks. o well i guess its one of the few last time i gonna get my hair done becoz of ns.

took like total of 3 hours for everything to get it done. its really mind torturing sitting there infront of the mirror with nothing to do.

discovered that i had many pimples more popping out too

when it was all done, received a call from desmond that he was at jp and going for a haircut.

talk about perfect timing

--------------------------------------

am in school now with no idea in mind wat to do.

patricia and gang is nowhere to be found
boon siang is late as usual.

and i haven had my breakfast yet.

my dear eline is having her final term test today! hooray! finally get to meet her again after so many months..

1/5 of a month i meant.

ah well kudos to all!

Cant breathe

2005-02-01T01:27:00.000+08:00

my pores infested nose is currently very blocked. nothing seem to be able to get in and out of it.. argh having difficulties juz trying to breathe..

so hows everyones' monday??
has been another day of slacking off in the canteen chatting and all for me.. not forgetting the ever boring csb class.

which brings me to the topic.

Butches. - Just how good/bad are they?

Recently me and boon siang have sorta noticed a few butches around fc6..

one of whom particularly we detest so much that probably she ( or he ) might probably be on the same level on our hatred for Dominic ( some fat ass )

First of all, she looks ugly. nuff said.

note : there are some butches who really look great i have to admit. too bad they chose the wrong path.

Secondly, she walks with a air of xia - lan - ness which is so bad that u probably think that she owns the whole sp or something.

that brought the subject of conversation for swee wei, guanbing , boon siang and yours faithfully, me.

" why do they try to act like a guy when in the end, they will still be gers? "
" they still go to the ladies "

and the list goes on and on. trust me.

Just when we sorta wanted to end the topic, boon siang once again spotted her.

" walk until so xia lan sial "

which me , swee wei, and guanbing nod our head enthusiastically. though it was much more of me who agrees.

" xia - lan, guai - lan "

and then i carelessly blurted out " bo - lan " which led to an uproar of laughter by swee wei.
obviously he was enjoying every second of it

i know it may sound crude but what the hell. its true right?

argh .. i hate butches!

FUCK TIAN BOON SIANG

2005-01-30T17:35:00.000+08:00

fuck u!

was supposed to go out for some shopping. called him like 10 times and no answer.. finally he wakes up and was suppose to meet him 540. i spent like the whole day waiting for this fucker to wake up.

went to bathe, change, styled my hair. and then

* beep beep *

bs : where u dude?
me : home loh
bs : hey lets not shop today la. tml?

BURN IN ~~HELL~~ MICROWAVE FUCKER

Emotional 330am

2005-01-30T03:28:00.000+08:00

Feeling very emotional now at 330am. can u believe it? .

aint tired at all so i was browsing through my frenster list and came upon one of my sec sch friend Wei Cong

read through his testimonial and somewhat it just make me think back on the good o secondary sch days where friends were abundant and gd frenship were forged. Playing soccer, studying, hanging out, getting punished in sch, staying back for lessons.. i really miss it all..

it suddenly concurred to me that i dun really keep in contact with any of my classmates anymore.. probably a main reason was that most of them went to jc ..

* i was one of the few that chose sp..

i really missed the good o secondary sch days where the class was quite united and everyone was close and harmonious.. i thought that it would kinda b the same in poly.. but then it wasnt as expected..

class was " unseeingly " divided into several groups .. different groups of gers, and lastly,

Us .. the 7 guys.

sigh.. o well guess thats life eh..

- Kudos to 1EG, 2E2, 3E4, 4E4 Bukit batok Secondary.

shoutout to all the guys from 2e2! really had the greatest memory of fun and laughter then. The soccer games and all..

to hafizan one of my closest malay friend i ever had, the copying of maths, crapping, using your handphone to sms ( considering the fact that u can only send 12 sms a day ). conversation with you is never a bore and i believe that u have truly inspired me to improve on my studies at that point of time. ( cause i always lose to him by a few mere points )

to Jingshi and Hwee Feng for being my "sisters" during my sec 3 and 4 era.. it was truly enjoyable and great fun the times we spent together. As mentioned earlier, the copying of homework and grumblings of Mrs Lim.. Memories i will always keep..

Looking forward to the next gathering.
nite

Irritating Sore Eyes

2005-01-29T16:14:00.000+08:00

woke up with a freakin irritating and bloodshot right eye today. damn it.. could open my eye properly.. supposed to have project discussion at 4something but the soreness just wouldnt go away..

sigh.. hate sore eyes

Back to blog

2005-01-28T09:52:00.000+08:00

O my avid readers ~ pardon me for not blogging for the past few days but i was fairly busy with my projects

and maybe some shopping, and anime watching but what the heck.. been pretty busy with my life recently.. i feel that mayb theres much more to life now then before. having time to blog now because i cant think of better stuffs to do. Not when ur in a practical lesson and to make matters worse, i skipped the last practical which results in me being quite lost here.

and furthermore, my folders and directories are all screwed up.

btw i am currently going into free-lance webdesigning ( contact me at neo.terence@gmail.com should u be interested ) and have about 2 projects pending and might be going for a job interview in the afternoon as a promoter for Tiger Beer!

i'm gonna be the next spokesperson for tiger beer i think.

(btw it aint promoting like those tiger ladies and all. just some stalls set up for festive seasons i guess )

o as i was saying, went shopping on wednesday with guan bing and swee wei..
bought a shirt ($63) at SEED ( lvl 3 of tangs ). Perfect Fit! muahah damn happy bout that..

which reminds me of something
Ladies and Gentleman, do try out the Expresso at coffee bean.
I must say it taste pretty nice.. if only it was ...

go try it and u'll get it its onl $3.20 anyway.

its really terrible feeling lost and all in practical. to make matters worse, there isnt any close friends that i can ask around.. fucked up.

2005-01-23T09:55:00.000+08:00

am still at home!!
currently still in the midst of struggling with my inner-self to go to the gym.. just cant seem to dig out the determination anymore! .. and furthermore, its pretty boring to be working out alone.. i need a spotter!

think my inner-self is gaining victory..
argh..

2005-01-23T09:23:00.000+08:00

ah! lost all my soccer bets.. damn it.. quite alot mind u..
gotta start cutting down on my expenses already.. no more pool games, movies, any cost for leisure for these few weeks i guess..

guess i'll just head to gyms and go jogging ( which i desperately need right now )

o man its only 927 and i'm awake.. actually i woke up around 7+ and checked the soccer scores.. couldnt slept after tat.. distraught =(

just read finish my book as well!

Being Alexander by Nancy Sparling.
its really has nice plot to it not and its hilarious as well.
u guys shd check it out.. and not to mention it has a fair deal amount of sex as well ( no pictures though )

argh.. still so darn early.. think i'm heading for the gym.. haven been working out for a few weeks now..

2005-01-20T13:43:00.000+08:00

2005 is indeed a great year.

wanna noe why?

watch this space..

dun blink..

u dun wanna miss this

I FREAKING PASSED MY DRIVING TEST AND NOW I'M A QUALIFIED DRIVER ON THE ROAD!

muahah who cares about the freakin POLY50 now! ( another story for another day, mayb when i wake up later )

I passed with 18 points!

and the most incredible thing is that. i got the most notorious tester Mr POH ( some fat guy , but since he passed me, hes a nice guy ) who was my tester for my 1st time and he heartedlessly deducted my marks like it was no tomorrow.

AHAHHAHAH sorry for my caps and all but i'm just so

HAPPY

ok gotta hit the sack now.. kinda tired.. will blog more tonight!

farked up day

2005-01-18T23:30:00.000+08:00

i'm really feeling damn farked up right now.. just feel like everything is going against me right at this moment.

exchanged a few heated words with my dad,
exchanged several heated sms with eline,
still exchanging heated sms with eline,
shes gonna go slp n ignore me now

its really been quite a bad day.. i'm just glad its over.

but i fear the worse has yet to come..

busy busy

2005-01-17T22:15:00.000+08:00

Busy busy like a bumble bee
i'm busy all day long
i'm busy all day long

having my phase one fyp presentation tml! still preparing my wonderful speech and doing up my powerpoint slides now.. and the worse of all is ..

gotta reach sch at 0800 tml by orders of Ms Patricia Quek.

heavy weightage of the presentation tml .. its like 30 or 40% .. forgotten

judged by 3 lecturers i guess.. hope there isnt any "simon cowell" amongst them.

=

asd

2005-01-16T13:15:00.000+08:00

www.soccernet.com

how in the world did arsenal lose to bolton?! especially when chelsea won their match against spurs.

argh damn them. placed bets on chelsea n arsenal 50 and 25 respectively..
Possible Winnings - 66
Realistic Winnings - 17

all because of arsenal.. sigh

2005-01-13T22:50:00.000+08:00

One of the sub pages inside the webpage..

2005-01-13T22:22:00.000+08:00

Heres a lousy quality image of the spcare homepage that we designed. Gonna be scaped anytime soon i guess

fark spcare

2005-01-13T22:05:00.000+08:00

Great. my fyp website has just been brought down to earth once again. Had spent the last few days desperately trying to come up with most of the pages. Patricia n gang had meeting with spcare with both guy ( A ) and guy ( B , who just came back from overseas )

Guy (A) told us to make our website more cheerful and brighter. Now the freaking guy (B) says that he wants the site to look

- solemn
- corporate
- Not Squarish
- Not kiddy (
- Not bright colors
- Peaceful

so now, me n boonsiang have to come up with another design altogether. Its like the 4th time we have design this site. and i can assure u, i'm really reaching my fucking limit.

And best of all, we have our presentation on tuesday ( 30% of grades ). I mean what the heck right. how to present when they obviously show no interest in my site. Patricia said that we just present to them.

but then come on la. its like trying to teach some mambo clubbers to dance to techno.

They OBVIOUSLY wouldnt show any interest at all.

and deep down inside, i really wonder wheres their sense of design and all. mayb my designs were too indept for them to take it eh? ah

FUCK THEM!

p/s: pardon me for my vulgarities

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Look at this sexy dude here. heh .. was browsing through my stuffs when i came upon this.

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